Right now I can smell brownies cooking in the oven, hear the TV and probably snoring momentarily and the chirping of the birds outside and Ally barking at them. It's a small little bark though, more like a barklette. Ben's asleep so I figured I'd write. I decided last week, and felt really good about this decision, that I was only going to visit Ben at his daycare during the day on the days that Ryan and I carpooled. I don't have anywhere to go on those days- so I figure 1/2 hour for eating and 1/2 hour to visit Ben. So Monday and Tuesday I had the car and had errands to run and decided I would not go those days. The reason why I'm doing this is because Ben's starting to go through the separation anxiety phase, and every time I leave him he cries. Not for long, he gets over it pretty quick, but I can imagine it's probably a little on the traumatic side for him. PLUS... it's hard on me to see him upset like that, my natural motherly guilt turns on that I can't just be with him all day and in turn makes me want to cry. Which I have a good few times. I think it's particularly hard on the days I only have literally 2-3 mins to spend with him, I run in and then run out- and he says "hey! You just got here! Why aren't you playing with me- DON'T GO!!"... well that's what I imagine he's saying in his head anyway. He's not that well versed yet. Monday I was alright, I was proud of myself for handling it as well as I did. Yesterday was a little harder, I missed him- but I was alright. Today I went to see him, and he was REALLY happy to see me (and I of course was happy to see him)... he ran to me and hugged me and it felt good to be with him again. It's a fact that not seeing him everyday will be harder on ME than it will be on him...
He's singing the words to his first song... okay- well the chorus anyway. And it's not like they're incredibly HARD lyrics... but HEY! He's doing it! I'll have to take video sometime... the song is "The Sound of Settling" by Death Cab for Cutie and pretty much in the chorus they sing "Bah, bah... this is the sound of (we fill it in with) Benny. Bah, bah... bah, bah". He's got the "Bah, Bah's" down! It's pretty cute.
He is going through a growth spurt right now and is really enjoying eating. A LOT. BUT he's now 13 months old and STILL wearing 9 month old pants! His shirt size is right according to his age... he's just a shorty. That's alright, "great things come in small packages" as my 6th grade Student Teacher told me one time. (She was short like me!) He's a happy kid, and people everywhere are so surprised to see him walking because he's so little looking. They always ask "How old is your little boy?".
OH, my sister Delinda got the job in Chicago! She found out today and is quite relieved. I'm torn, I'm SUPER happy for her and this is going to be an incredible experience for her- but REALLY sad she wont be here anymore, which means I have no family near me anymore. BUT... it's a new place to visit as Ryan said. And we are all so happy for her and feel it as a HUGE blessing. She's SO great and we're all so proud of her. What an awesome accomplishment! That's my bis sis! We need to celebrate!
Well... I guess that's all for now. I'm pretty much obsessed with the website blurb.com. Why you ask? Well, I just completed my first "Blog Book", which means I was able to export all of the posts and pictures from everything I've written so far into a book format. (We're using it much like Jessica as a family history book.) I cut it down to a year-a-book, so I did 2008 and ordered it yesterday (should have it next week or so) and am now working on 2007. BUT I am also making a photography book, sort of a portfolio book of sorts to have to show potential "clients". It's quite affordable too which is a plus. And I love looking at all the people's books on the site that have chosen to allow for a preview. It's pretty awesome. Wow... for not much to update I sure wrote a lot. Okay, I'm done... for real. It's time for a warm brownie.











Here was the cake eating. He liked the frosting a lot more than the actual cake of course. He was pretty cute.


This past weekend we drove to Knoxville, TN to visit my lovely cousin Laura (Lulu) and her family. We left straight after work Friday. I kind of feel bad now looking back on it because I don't think I was myself this weekend and probably wasn't much fun for her. Usually I'd stay up late talking the night I got there- but tired me didn't even think about it and went straight to bed and didn't realize they had stayed up waiting for us to come down after we put Ben down to hang out. SORRY! I didn't sleep so hot that night, so the next day I was TIRED but still had a lot of fun. Laura kept asking if I was alright, and besides being tired I was fine! We went to the Knoxville Zoo and Ben saw some of his first of the Wild Kingdom. We saw Elephants, Giraffes, Zebras, Bears, Lions, Tigers (oh my), a baby chimp, birds of all kinds, gazelles, a hyena, and many, many more... it was fun! Afterwards we went home, Ryan jumped on the trampoline with the kids, we hung out and ate good food and watched a movie. The next morning we woke up to a thin blanket of snow and then it snowed a little in the morning. I loved it! Knoxville really is a pretty place... I could see myself living there. It reminds me a lot of where I grew up in Flagstaff, AZ. It was sad to leave that day... I wish we could have stayed longer- and I really still do feel bad that I was having an "off" weekend. I loved laughing and giggling and being silly with them though. It was a good trip!
I would be lying if I said that the state of the economy isn't worrying us. We are trying to make some very overwhelming decisions in our life to cut down on costs and what we spend our money on. Luckily Ben has started to eat more and more "big boy" foods and is now starting to transition over to milk instead of formula- so we should be able to save a few bucks on that. He's a big fan of french fries, waffles, goldfish, spaghettios, carrots, peaches, and noodles. And he LOVES Ranch or Blue Cheese too, I'll dip my finger in it and then let him suck on it and he does the coolest little tongue thing! It's hilarious! He'll eat the pureed stuff still, but isn't as interested in it. It's so strange realizing my little baby is turning into a little boy and will be walking any day now AND is almost 1 years old! He's got such a cool personality and is so fun to be around. Last night 
I would caption this "What mom?"