I'm sitting here at my desk listening to the disco ball my wonderful coworkers placed in my cube for my birthday decor feeling a little blue, I have to admit. It's just that it's still REALLY hard to have Ben at daycare for me. (Obviously I just got back from seeing him!) I thought I'd be somewhat over it by now, but I'm not. I thought after a year I'd be a pro daycare mom. There's not much I can do about it right now though... other than basically get over it until things change. But the fact of the matter is I need to just get used to the idea that I might never get to be at home with my kids. It makes me sad knowing that he'd much rather go to one of the teachers there then come to his own mommy when I go to visit him. I'm sure there's good reason for it, but since there's a lack of communication (verbally anyway) it's hard to know what's going on inside his little head. I kind of think (and hope) it's because it's the classroom next door to him where all the bigger kids go and he REALLY loves going over there to play. Anyway, I'll get off my soap box and stop feeling sorry for myself now and move on to another subject.
Yesterday, I did a HUGE boo-boo. It's kind of humorous now, but it wasn't then. Ryan and I try to car pool as much as possible and in a rush to get out the door yesterday we left the garage light on. Ryan pulled back up in to the garage so I could get out to turn it off... but instead of turning the light off I pushed the garage door button! Whoops! And yes, it came down on the car because it wasn't pulled all the way in. Whoops! LUCKILY between Ryan gunning it and me trying to quickly think of which button to push again- we didn't occur too much damage. There was some, which I think Ryan fixed pretty much thank goodness. I felt like a big jerk though.
Still do... but I'm super glad it wasn't worse.
I'm very glad the week is over. It's not been too bad, my husband has been super sweet to me this week (not that he isn't usually), work has been okay. We found out last week that there were pay cuts and now today some people got laid off. So it's a little weird around here lately. I am just grateful to have a job. And I'm excited because tomorrow we get to drop Benny off with Nana and Poppy and we're going to dinner with friends and then bowling. Have a good weekend all!


Here was the cake eating. He liked the frosting a lot more than the actual cake of course. He was pretty cute.


This past weekend we drove to Knoxville, TN to visit my lovely cousin Laura (Lulu) and her family. We left straight after work Friday. I kind of feel bad now looking back on it because I don't think I was myself this weekend and probably wasn't much fun for her. Usually I'd stay up late talking the night I got there- but tired me didn't even think about it and went straight to bed and didn't realize they had stayed up waiting for us to come down after we put Ben down to hang out. SORRY! I didn't sleep so hot that night, so the next day I was TIRED but still had a lot of fun. Laura kept asking if I was alright, and besides being tired I was fine! We went to the Knoxville Zoo and Ben saw some of his first of the Wild Kingdom. We saw Elephants, Giraffes, Zebras, Bears, Lions, Tigers (oh my), a baby chimp, birds of all kinds, gazelles, a hyena, and many, many more... it was fun! Afterwards we went home, Ryan jumped on the trampoline with the kids, we hung out and ate good food and watched a movie. The next morning we woke up to a thin blanket of snow and then it snowed a little in the morning. I loved it! Knoxville really is a pretty place... I could see myself living there. It reminds me a lot of where I grew up in Flagstaff, AZ. It was sad to leave that day... I wish we could have stayed longer- and I really still do feel bad that I was having an "off" weekend. I loved laughing and giggling and being silly with them though. It was a good trip!
I would be lying if I said that the state of the economy isn't worrying us. We are trying to make some very overwhelming decisions in our life to cut down on costs and what we spend our money on. Luckily Ben has started to eat more and more "big boy" foods and is now starting to transition over to milk instead of formula- so we should be able to save a few bucks on that. He's a big fan of french fries, waffles, goldfish, spaghettios, carrots, peaches, and noodles. And he LOVES Ranch or Blue Cheese too, I'll dip my finger in it and then let him suck on it and he does the coolest little tongue thing! It's hilarious! He'll eat the pureed stuff still, but isn't as interested in it. It's so strange realizing my little baby is turning into a little boy and will be walking any day now AND is almost 1 years old! He's got such a cool personality and is so fun to be around. Last night 
I would caption this "What mom?"





